Tomorrow will mark one month since Jarod left. It's actually gone by quite fast! I have stayed extremely busy!
Yesterday was a sad day. Jarod called me in the evening to let me know he was ok and not to worry about him based on news reports. I didn't know what he was talking about. I tried to look up news but found nothing. He informed me of 2 Americans who died. Just a few days ago he told me he had a bad feeling and an American would die soon. He told me to be ready to receive a phone call with shocking news. Well, I hope and pray that there are no more phone calls like this! Thankfully I could hear his voice and know that he was ok.
It does scare to think he could have been where those guys were. I've cried quite a few times since his call last night. I didn't sleep well at all. I wasn't worrying myself sick but I just couldn't stay asleep. I kept getting up to check on the boys, getting some water, and then toss and turn a bit before drifting back off to sleep.
I know my worrying is no help at all to Jarod. What is helpful is the power of prayer. So, the moment I start to feel anxious I pray. I have been praying a lot! I have to say I do feel peace when I pray. Prayer is like medication for me, I guess. I thought about asking my Doctor about an anti-depressant or something but I haven't yet. Mainly because...I'm not depressed. I cry here and there and if feel a little anxiety. I just keep trying to pray and relax myself.
Last week I had a lot of stomach pains and headaches. I feel pretty good right now, other then being tired from not enough sleep. I'm on day 4 of a detox/cleanse. It's very gentle and I feel that it is helping me to not feel so sluggish. I'm paying attention to my water intake and amount of carbs. It is a goal of mine to be VERY physically (of course, emotionally and spiritually too!)healthy by the time Jarod returns. I need a healthy body to help ensure a healthy pregnancy, when we try to have our last baby. (Isabella Grace)
Well, I'm off to bed for tonight. I think I will sleep well. I got to talk to Jarod for a few minutes and that always helps put my mind at ease. :)
Until Next Time...
-Linda
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Hey honey! Don't take the medicine if you really feel you can pass with with prayer. You don't need side effects and things to make things worse for you now then they already are. Maybe something to help you sleep would be better? Girl, I love you so much and your family (and the one that is preparing to be the last Savage baby). I pray for health, strength, and peace. I pray you get the desires of your heart. I love praying for you in my daily prayers...it keeps me on my toes...heehee!! You know, I am always here if you need me. I love you guys!!
ReplyDeleteHey Linda...Tony here...well into my deployment...I know it's hard not to worry, but our job when we're overseas is not dangerous compared to most. He'll make it home safe and sound. God is watching over him...and you.
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